As the title suggests, this is the fifth and last installment of my “50 Questions” series. For the first four, go here, here, here, & here respectively. These questions have gotten progressively more difficult to answer and have been very reflective, so I suggest answering them for yourself just to think about some things that say something about your values. Sometimes I feel like I’m cheating because I don’t have big, elaborate answers, but if I gave those, at least some of it would be forced or made-up. So, here it goes!!!
- If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
I would do visits with my best friends, but I would primarily spend the day with my boyfriend and family.
- Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Well…there are so many things that go with that. For one, I don’t really know when I’ll die or whatever, or if money comes with fame, or if this beauty is just fleeting. I’m really fine with where I am, and being famous seems like it would be … uncomfortable?
- What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
To me…I think the difference is enjoyment & happiness. I mean, unless I’m dead, I’m alive, right? So truly living would be knowing what I want and going for it, sweating, laughing, and all the stuff that comes from doing things and trying to make a difference.
- When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
I am a big fan of calculations and stuff, but I’d say when there are no more words to be said. Then you know there’s just action left.
- If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Psh. Because learning is painful, and we are taught from a young age that ridicule accompanies mistakes.
- What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I would probably exercise more, play video games more, do yoga. Go swimming.
- When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Early today, because it was raining.
- What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
- In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
I think I’d remember the conference I just came back from, and maybe a conversation I had on Monday, but I haven’t done anything extraordinary recently.
- Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Me, myself, & I (although to be fair, some of that is out of my control).
As the title suggests, this is the fourth installment of my “50 Questions” series. For the first three, go here, here, & here respectively. These questions have gotten progressively more difficult to answer and have been very reflective, so I suggest answering them for yourself just to think about some things that say something about your values. Sometimes I feel like I’m cheating because I don’t have big, elaborate answers, but if I gave those, at least some of it would be forced or made-up. So, here it goes!!!
- At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
Um, that one is actually really hard. I can’t remember. I felt really awesome when I went to Banff & got to climb the mountains & touch glacier lakes. I generally feel best when I’m figuring stuff out though.
- If not now, then when?
When I hit the bare minimum qualification of being prepared. I don’t want to go into something that I’m not ready for. Yeah, you can stick the qualifier on there to say that “You will never be completely prepared,” but I don’t subscribe to that.
- If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Everything possibly? Generally, if I haven’t achieved something yet, it’s due to factors outside of my control or a lack of dedication.
- Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
- Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
When people start supporting the entirety of what religions proclaim, there will be less religious wars.
- Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
I don’t think so. Good & Evil are very subjective, and sometimes different aspects of something are good & evil, so it’s both and you have to try to figure out which is stronger (like in On a Pale Horse)
- If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
I’m in school, but I wouldn’t drop out. I would put a lot of it into a retirement fund with a high interest rate & pay off my student loans. I would look into investing a bit of it as well. (Yeah, pretty boring). I would also buy an ipad 2!!!
- Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Definitely more work I enjoy. It wouldn’t matter if there was less of what I didn’t like as much, because it feels like it takes forever when you have work you don’t really want to do…whereas time flies when you’re having fun!!!
- Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
I do sometimes on other days. I don’t today because I’m spending the day with bf for the first time in months, I get to see his nieces to babysit!, and I am eating McDonald’s (love HotnSpicy’s!!)
- When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
Never? There’s never been a situation where it’s been necessary to do so…
I love the ears
I’m only 2 hours into Saturday, so that doesn’t really count as being late with this post right? I just finished packing to leave Canada (and I have somehow acquired a ton more things), cleaning house, etc, so have patience with me =) For those new to my “50 Questions” endeavor, the first two posts are here and here respectively. So, here it goes. Round 3:
- Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Shallow as it sounds, a worried genius. I don’t like the idea of being something that is synonymous with the word fool.
- Why are you, you?
It’s easier than trying to be someone else.
- Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
It’s hard to say. My friends rely on me in a different manner than I rely on my friends, so probably not. I don’t think I would be patient enough with myself (it’s why I’m not friends with people who are similar to me. They just rub me the wrong way).
- Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
From experience, definitely the former.
- What are you most grateful for?
Right at this moment? Knowing that I’m going to be home soon.
- Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
It’s really hard to say. I think my old memories contribute way too much to who I am (way more nurture than nature in me) for me to be able to progress the way I want without them. There are also a lot of people I can’t make new memories with, and I already have memories with the love of my life, so probably the former (gosh, getting into difficult questions).
- Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
It’s not necessary to challenge something that is rational & logical, so I think it depends on the presentation of said truth.
- Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Partially. I don’t want to lose any more of the people I love.
- Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Ha. I had to think back to what existed five years ago. I think, August of 2007, I was most upset about a “break” with my then boyfriend. I remember I couldn’t eat for weeks. I lost a lot of weight and was miserable, and it really destroyed my relationship mentality for a while. It matters I guess in that I learned a lot from it (hindsight is 20/20 yada yada), but I’m glad it didn’t work out =)
- What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
I have no idea. Thinking back, probably a mix of our early family vacations to Pensacola & Ft. Pickens (before Hurricane Ivan) and Boy Scout Cuborees.
=3 so cute =3
So, to read the first installment and find the original list of questions, visit this post. Every Friday, I’m answering 10 of the “50 Questions that will free your mind.” I was going to do them all at once but decided against it because: it will take a long time, it will be a very long post, & I imagine at points it would make my head hurt. So, 3 Fridays left and 30 questions left after this post! I know it’s not necessarily budget-or-fudget information, but I think reflecting on this sort of thing will help self-awareness, which is really important for all aspects of a person’s life.
- You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
I have had this happen before. Usually, I either voice that I disagree and change the subject. If that doesn’t work, I leave. I find it draining to be around that kind of talk, especially about a close friend. My respect for these people would also fall. To me, the best way to determine what kind of person someone is, is to observe how they treat others.
- If you could offer a newborn child only 1 piece of advice, what would it be? Do what you can to be happy without hurting people.
- Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Of course. I would break the law to save anyone.
- Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
I don’t think so. I tend to think of things very analytically, so if I thought something was insane, it’s probably because I thought it couldn’t work.
- What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
I live in between 2 worlds: Do what I want and Do what I need. Most people fall into the latter, and I picked up the first from a friend of mine. I tend to do what I want, even if there are consequences that some would consider too much. I try to live with one foot in the future and one in the now, and I think, especially with the pressure that everyone is under, that it is a rare attitude. I like it, but sometimes it is stressful..
- How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Different strokes for different folks
- What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Take a year off from school. Yeah, I only have a year left, so it’s not really realistic (and before I would have lost major scholarships). I have thought a lot about taking a year off between undergrad. and graduate school, but I’m naturally a really cautious person when it comes to things like this. I’m afraid of not finding a job, not being able to get into graduate school later, and never being able to do what I want, but a break would be really really nice. I do hope the 2+2 program works out.
- Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
I’m a feelings hoarder, and it’s really not healthy. Situations with my family, my boyfriend, my friends…sometimes I can get really mad over things that happened years ago, and it’s not fair to them or to me. I need to be able to actually forgive people and not dwell, but it is easier said than done.
- If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
I would probably move to somewhere in the lower part of British Columbia. I’ve been in Canada for the last few months, and it’s not very different in a lot of ways from the US, but there are some fundamental differences (more socially liberal). I would have to live in a coastal place wherever I go because I need the seafood =). I really can’t imagine living somewhere permanently that is not Louisiana…
- Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
Yes. I don’t think it does, but sometimes there is satisfaction in taking some sort of action when there is no actual action to be taken.
I would say this set of questions was harder for me to answer than the first. I really struggled with #5 & #7. Good luck if you’re endeavoring to answer these as well! Here’s a puppy to help with any emotional exhaustion =)
(I really do want this kind of puppy one day! [long-haired dappled dachshund])
I’ve heard about these infamous “50 questions” before, so of course I Google’d to see what it was about. To see for yourself, go to the original post here. I think I’m going to answer 10 every Friday night for the next five weeks (once you start reading them, you’ll realize like I did that attempting all of them in one night my be emotionally tiring).
- How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I would probably be about 25. Old enough to have my stuff together but young enough to still be in my 20’s 😉
- Which is worse, failing or never trying?
I think that entirely depends on what you’re doing. Generally, I would go with never trying. I’ve failed at plenty of stuff, but there’s not a lot of self-satisfaction in being sedentary when challenges approach.
- If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Money doesn’t grow on trees and all that jazz. It takes a lot of courage to do what you want. From a young age, you’re straddled with what society expects of you, what your parents, extended family, teachers, professors, significant others, and pretty much anyone who comes into contact expects of you. It’s hard to break out and do what you have always wanted without feeling selfish, scared, or both. Be courageous!
- When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Maybe, I tend to ramble in case y’all haven’t noticed. I’m hoping to have done a lot both for myself and others around me. I like fixing things and taking actions.
- What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Turn tolerance into acceptance. It may sound corny, but if there were more selflessness and love in the world, it would be a lot better.
- If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
- Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
I’m not quite sure of what I believe in yet, so I can’t really say. I try to be nice to people, even those I don’t like, and I think that’s the most I can hope for right now. I’m fairly young and am a student, so I can’t really settle into this (it’s too expensive).
- If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
To be honest, I probably wouldn’t have gone to college. I would have sort of hopped around the world. Yeah, I know that can be expensive, but once you get over the “pond” so to speak, it is all pretty close together. I would want to experience things. If you died at 40, you wouldn’t really have time for the school+career route and then get retirement, so I think I’d take all 40 of my years in retirement =)
- To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
To an extent, there’s always something over your shoulder that keeps you from doing things (not a supernatural thing on your shoulder, but more like monetary or the government), but I’ve tried to do something about every unfavorable situation I have ever found myself to be in. I’m not one to “sit back and take it.”
- Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Both, the former more than I’d like to admit =/ I have to keep my regulatory “NEEDS RULES” side from forgetting about the principle of the matter =)
That was kind of stressful. Here’s a kitten!